TEARS, TALK, TIME, AND TOMORROWS

I never thought I could go on living when you died, but...I did.

I never thought I would survive after burying you, but...I did.

I never thought I'd get through those first days, weeks, and months, but...I did.

I never thought I'd be able to endure the first anniversary of your death, but...I did.

I never thought I'd let myself love my new grandchild, but...I have.

I never thought tomorrow would be different, but...it was.

I never thought I'd stop crying for a day, but...I have.

I never thought I'd ever sing again, but...I have.

I never thought the pain would 'soften', but...it has.

I never thought I'd care if the sun shone again, but...I do.

I never thought I'd ever entertain again, but...I have.

I never thought I'd be able to control my grief, but...I can.

I never thought I could function without medication again, but...I can.

I never thought I'd smile again, but...I do.

I never thought I'd laugh out loud again, but...I do.

I never thought I'd look forward to tomorrow, but...I do.

I never thought I'd reconcile your death, but...I have.

I never thought I'd be able to create that 'new normal', but...I have.

I never thought I'd want to go on living after you died, but...I do --

Always missing you, always loving you, and thinking of you daily,

with a smile on my face... and tears on my heart.

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